That night we barely closed our eyes. We kissed through the night, and the bitterness of our saliva filled the room. Our bed drifted in the boundless sea like a lonely island in imminent danger. We took refuge in each other's love. When the heart breaks there's a crackling sound, very light and very fine, like the splintering of wood fibres. I promised Tian Tian I would visit him often, and that I would take good care of Fur Ball and myself. I would write seriously and finish my novel. I wouldn't let myself sink into nightmares ... I love you. And that's how my love is.